Congratulations on your release of Heroine. It’s AMAZING. You should be so proud.
Thank you so much!
This song is all about taking control of your battle with anorexia and mental health. When writing a song like this, does it bring up a lot of hard feelings?
It does yes. These new songs have been in the pipeline for a long time. I’ve been trying to work out how to talk about my story for a very very long time, but I needed to find the right time to do so, emotionally and mentally. I didn’t want to release a song all about being a hero in my own story until I was one, or at least on my way to being one. The writing process is more mentally straining but its also incredibly rewarding and healing. The release process is terrifying but it’s necessary for myself to contour to heal and of course, you never know who might hear it, relate and chose recovery. I just hope it hits someone the same way music helped me.
You, unfortunately, suffered from really bad anorexia twice. What do you think was the biggest issue during this time in your life? Was it looking at social media and magazines of unrealistic photos of women?
This is probably the hardest question I’ve come across in all the interviews I’ve ever done. I prefer not to look at it as “suffering” to be honest. I prefer to direct the conversation towards the fact that since going through two really severe relapses, I have overcome anorexia, for now. I mentioned in another interview that I feel as though anorexia is and will, unfortunately, be apart of who I am for the rest of my life but it doesn’t rule me. I am not the eating disorder, it’s just something I manage. Like anxiety, or depression. There are many different factors that contribute to my mental health and what can potentially place me in a dark thought process. I can’t directly pinpoint a reason or blame one instance or the moment but yes I do also agree that social media, unrealistic expectations, other peoples opinions of me etc do all contribute.
How did you come around to loving yourself for who you are and having better self-confidence?
This is something I work on every single day. I don’t think I’ve masted “loving myself” yet. It’s a process. Confidence comes from not overthinking my every move and not seeking approval from other people. I have also found that when I am unapologetically being myself, I attract the right kinds of people around me. I’m a very social person and I need people around me all the time, so being myself is easier than exhausting myself to be someone different every time.
You have been sharing the most vulnerable stories in your songs lately. Is that hard to do? Do you ever get nervous to release them out into the world?
Yes, it’s hard but its also the reason I do what I do. I don’t really know what else I would do with my life if I didn’t share my stories through music. Its kind of my escape and my healing all wrapped up together. When even one person sends me a message and tells me my music helped them in some way, I feel like I’ve fulfilled my purpose.
And the song “demands a conversation around the unrealistic expectations and constant self-adjustments that too many of us are killing ourselves to achieve.” What do you hope people, especially women, to take from this song and add into their own lives? Obviously those types of conversations, but what else?
I just hope someone out there feels heard and maybe a little less lonely in whatever they are going through. I don’t think someone has to be dealing with an eating disorder to relate to my music. I hope that people can hear between the lines too and attach their own meanings to my stories. I know. I can’t “save” everybody as much as I wish I could but I hope that by documenting my hardships, I can educated those who are stuck inside the very common misconceptions of mental illness and educate family and friends on what it looks and feels like to live with it.
You co-wrote this song with Isabella Kearney-Nurse, who has worked with JoJo, Jessica Mauboy and The Veronicas. How was that experience? Did you learn a lot from her? And do you think there is any chance you could maybe work with any of those above amazing artists in the future?
I co-wrote this with Cyrus and Isabella last year while actually still dealing with the anorexia so it was a tough session. Isabella was great with helping me process what I really wanted to say. Often I word vomit and just talk about what’s going on with the people I’m working with before we actually start the “writing process”. I’m picky with who I work with because I’m so passionate about what I want to say and why. I would love to write with those girls! Always a goal to write with bad ass female names!
You have really stuck to your goal so far this year of releasing one song a month in 2020. How do you do this? Do you ever sleep? haha
And do you have any issues with writer’s block when you have this sort of a timeline?
Hahaha! Yes, that’s the plan, although I am also letting myself feel out the process a little, as I go. Purely based on the idea that I don’t just want to release music for the sake of it. I still want it to be quality over quantity. I do sleep but I won’t lie, last year during most of the writing process, I didn’t. I actually struggled with that a lot haha. I do experience writer’s block often but for me, it’s easy to get back into writing. The only reason I will tell myself that I’m not feeling inspired is because I can easily push the idea to the back of my mind when I’m busy and when I don’t want to deal with my emotions. If you push me in a room with my favourite writers and producers, I’ll write. haha
And lastly, what advice would you give to our readers who want to follow their dreams of becoming a singer-songwriter?
As cliche as this is….Just start! Take even the smallest step towards what you want to do and always celebrate the small wins along the way. Also, find the right group of people to work with. Finding your team is hard but keep it simple. They should support you, love you and believe in you and your art and that’s it. Music is a long game, so find people who are willing to stick it out with you no matter what.
If our audience would like to contact you or find out what you are up to in the future, where should they go?
I’m on pretty much every platform and love chatting to people and hearing their stories. Just search “Sammi Constantine”
Thanks again for having a chat to us again today Sammi.
Thank you so much for having me. It means so much to have people like you taking the time to hear my stories. Thank you to anyone reading.
– Interviewed by Lauren Yeates
Check out our other interview with Sammi Constantine here.